Muscles Straining through Dizzy Days

I never thought it would be this way. Every day is a dizzy buzzing tense experience that wrecks the doing routine things and feeling able to manage. It doesn't work out though I do work at it there's nothing normal or usual about feeling as messed up as I have while trying to do laundry or load the DW or water the plants or prepare the meals. It's all very strange and scary and I live it to the best of my ability. Sometimes I question just what my ability is as the space I'm in expands or diminishes and my perception of everything is shadowed or engulfed in my anxiety.

Insulation Works Both Directions

There is so much of wonder in the world outside my door. It remains less explored than in decades past. The enjoyment of nature scapes has not diminished nor have happy associations and friendships ceased to warm my heart. I find myself too often looking at and experiencing these through a glass or other distance and wondering how long before the renewal of spring and warmth of summer? New possibilities to explore have been waiting for winter freeze to thaw. These changes go on continuously like water moves as a liquid or a gas unconfined. Insulation in a frozen life holds the cold in and keeps the spring time out.

Holding On to the Sides

I'm certain there are many things in the everyday life of anyone that can be labeled scary. I wonder sometimes if living the scary life isn't the most difficult thing to do. When I meet anyone who understands how scary life can be I know I've met a kindred soul who has seen their own challenges. It goes without saying the beating heart the palms & soles of perspiration are but the more outward indicators of how scary life is today. How it turns out may be determined by holding on and bracing for the ride.